In 2022 we found some poems written by a former sex worker. This set of poems offer us an incredible insight into her life at the time. Here is ‘You’re a bad boy Mr White’ (‘Mr White’ and ‘Mr Brown’ are slang for drugs).
You’re a bad boy Mr White
Look what you’ve done to me, I am a right sight
But I don’t know who’s worse, Mr White or Mr Brown
All he does is make me look glum and down.
Sore face, dirty nails, lank hair
It’s just not fair
I was a beauty till you both arrived
My life you messed up
My mind you contrived
When will it stop?
This yearning inside
My heart says no
My mind says it’s easier to go with the flow
My strength has run out
My street cred is nout
Stealing, cheating, lying to all
No morals left for me to fall
You’ve left my life in a complete and utter mess.
I need some help to get some rest
Do you hear my cry’s for the help I need
Just give me one change, I know I’ll succeed
I know I have begged for this before
But this time, I promise, I know for sure
I won’t let Mr White or Mr Brown
Turn my life upside down
They won’t meddle with my body or play with my mind
I just need to let my thoughts unwind
They cause me so much heartache,
They lost me my soul and my fate
Now Mr White and Mr Brown
Will be buried with no mates
And I will be free
From the pain and the past
To be that girl that’s meant to be me
Just let me win it’s within my grasp
There’s light at the end of the tunnel, its coming in sight
I’m fighting the devil, they call Mr White
This time I will win, he’s losing his bite
Mr Brown shows his ugly head and expects me to beg
Goodnight Mr White and Goodnight to you Mr Brown
It’s a long time coming but I’m sure I have the strength to put you to bed.
It’s a sorry story you all may know
A fight from the beginning to the end that Mr White led
Followed not far behind was Mr Brown in tow
I know you didn’t start this fight
It was my past, that was harsh and not right.
But now I have have to take a stand
And make you see my dreams of the Promised Land
You broke my body, mind and soul
The life you led me has taken its toll
You have lost the right and made me fight
Goodbye and goodnight both Mr Brown and Mr White
Now my future looks healthy and bright
You’ll wait for me, I know, on the road outside
But you will see me smile as I go by
Now I know how to shoot you down
To both of you its my delight to say goodbye and goodnight
I am the girl who broke free
You lost your grip and let me be ME.
Anonymous
Most of the women we support are struggling with substance abuse. Please hold them in your prayers.
“…The second is this, you shall love your neighbour as yourself, there is no other commandment greater than these.” Mark chp 12 v 31